Am I really doing this again?

Obviously the last time didn't work and the whole blogging thing went to the wayside. Who knew I'd lose my mind and try Boot Camp again?

I was looking back over my entries and began deleting them to start fresh again, but then I thought I might need those...something to inspire maybe? I don't know...kinda like throwing away pictures from high school...I don't like them but it's what made me who I am today. So I stopped hitting the 'delete' button and here I am.

Last fall I signed up for boot camp again with my bestie. This was a different place, different trainer, but a little earlier. Boot camp was at 5:45AM on Mon/Wed/Fri, and I was there. Yes, I know that's shocking...but I was there. In fact, Bestie picked me up every day! However, we only went for about 4 weeks because my lack of coordination got in the way and I fell resulting in a severely sprained ankle.

Thought about doing something after Christmas, but it never happened. Finally after a recent doctors appointment, I was looking over my blood work. My cholesterol and triglycerides...everything...is great! Doc goes on and on about how he wishes all his patients could have my numbers. But the number written by "weight" was (once again) the largest it's ever been. Wouldn't you know my trainer from the fall sent an email that very afternoon about the new round of boot camps? So I signed up...again...but this time, alone. Bestie hated every minute of it last time and had no intention of getting up and working out at that hour! haha

So for the last 2 weeks, I've been at Boot Camp M/W/F at 5:45 AM. When we weighed in at the end of the first week, I had actually gained one pound! I handled it well though...it was a bloated week so I ignored the number on the scale. This past Friday, at the end of 2 weeks, I have lost 6 pounds.

And now you're caught up Blogger. Wish me luck.

8 weeks down...one more to go!

**I wasn't able to go to boot camp yesterday...we had a sick kitty so I spent the time at the vet. Luckily, she's fine!**

Headed off to boot camp this morning and go there just in time. There was another new person there today and ME. (Actually her first day was yesterday.) She's another FIT one....accustomed to working out and enjoying it. She brought her 2 kids with her, which the other FIT one does too. However the new chick's kids wouldn't sit down and be quiet. They are young...kinder and 2nd grader, but STILL! When the other chick brings her kids, we don't hear a peep from them. The kids today kept yelling,"Mom, is that hard?" or "Mom, that doesn't look very hard."

I'm sorry, but when I'm working my butt off, barely able to catch my breath, I don't want to hear kids screaming junk!!

Okay...vent over.

Today was a little different. Instead of doing a minute on each station, then a minute on a cardio thing, we worked on 2-station pairings. For instance, we worked on one thing for 3o seconds, then switched to something else using the opposing muscle for 30 seconds. Then we repeated, on the same 2 stations. Then we immediately moved to the next pair. I went through it all, and of course, Mr. Candy had to keep rushing me, "Come on..gotta finish it...gotta get to the next station....come on, no resting" That's what he's there for though.

Something was different today though. Even though each station was hard and I was gritting my teeth to finish, it didn't seem as hard. I don't know if it was because there wasn't any cardio in between or if it's easier for me. Probably both!!

I plan to walk this weekend...not sure if just one or both days. When I walk though...I plan to walk at least 3 miles.

Today I'm feeling thinner...and it's not a thin week of the month! haha

Believing~~~

I'm doing all I can to believe, but gosh it is SO frustrating!!! I can see a difference in my endurance and my strength. I can even see a difference with a few inches (not many, but a few). The scales haven't budged. Not.at.all. It can be so depressing when I'm working so hard!

Today's BC was okay. I made it through so that's all that mattered. There were only two of us again today. I CAN proudly say that I've kept with it when the other women dropped out for one reason or another.

I. WILL. NOT. QUIT!!

I have to remind myself of that from time to time. To be quite honest, I haven't truly wanted to QUIT. I haven't even thought of quitting...I guess that's a good thing. What I think of most is how hard it is...how much I don't like it. I try my best to pull up my big girl panties and remind myself that I'm in this shape because of not taking care of myself. I remind myself of the strength and endurance I've built and how I AM taking care of myself now. And to shut up about it! LOL

I got myself into this shape...it's up to me to get myself out of it.

How I wish I could be one of those "textbook stories". You know....the stories of how my condition and my stick-with-it-ness touched some trainers heart and he wanted to take me under his arm and mold me into a "mini"-him......know what I mean? How come I hear all these stories about how things just fall into place for people?? Why can't things just fall into place for ME?

I know...poor old me. Get over it!

Today I've gotta believe...if my strength and endurance have increased, I must be doing something!

~~~Just keep swimming
~~~Just keep swimming
~~~What do we do
~~~We swim.

Thanks Dory ;)

I'm back at it!

Sorry for being MIA for the last week or so. Apparently I DID overdo it and I was unable to go back to boot camp Thursday and Friday (2 weeks ago). Then last week, we went on a "last hurrah" before school starts back. We spent the week on Lake Erie with our family BFFs. We brought our weights and our plans for exercise...but they didn't do any good. We had a good, relaxing time though.

Yesterday was interesting. I don't want to forget some details so I'm adding them here.

I was so tired when we got home on Sunday. I took 2 naps and I was still tired! Before going to bed that night, my son asked me if I was going to boot camp the next morning. I told him I wasn't sure, and he lovingly told me, "Mom, you need to go! You've missed a week and you need to get back into it. Why don't you go to bed early and get up and go?" (Little snot!)
Anyway...that night, I DID go to bed early, but I didn't set my alarm. I thought I'd just see how I felt when my husband got up for work. If I felt okay, I'd go ahead and get up.

When my husband left for work, it was about 5:30am, and I hardly remember it. But as I lay there in bed, something very strange happened. I went back to sleep. The next thing I know, I hear my mother calling me like she always did...first and middle name! And I answered!!! "Ma'am?" I mumbled into my pillow. That's actually the moment I realized I had heard her call me! Then I heard, "Get out of bed!" I opened my eyes and looked at the clock. It read "7:05"...the time my alarm clock WOULD have gone off, IF I would have set it.

I can only think it was an incredible dream. But it was nice. My mom is trying to help me avoid dying an early age like she did.

So anyway...I was back at it. And I thought I'd surely die!!

After a week of total debauchery with food and drink and no exercise, my body was ready to KILL me. It was rough. I'm sure it was the food and drink of the previous week...very few healthy things and nowhere NEAR the amount of water I should have been drinking. I didn't have my usual banana for breakfast either, and apparently a tablespoon of peanut butter and a handful of grape tomatoes isn't enough!!

I slept in this morning, but I'll have my class tonight with the bunny so I won't be missing a workout today.

Yesterday, Mr. Candy talked about what we're going to do after school is back in session. We'll have our workouts in the morning BEFORE school.....BEFORE the chickens are up even!! We'll meet around 5:15AM for exercise to get our day going...woohoo! (And that is said totally tongue-in-cheek!) I'm planning to do it though. I've gotta keep it up.

I've gotta believe this is working. I'm believing this is making me healthier.

Hope I haven't overdone it!

This morning I got up and made it to boot camp, and one of the husbands was there!

It was so funny! I LOVED seeing a fit man grunt! Obviously he worked out...he had a few ripples, but he grunted just like we do. Boy I felt good! There we were...grunting, sweating, grunting, squatting, dripping...and he was too! I was really inspired by the fact I was able to keep up with all of them...even a man!!

This afternoon was so beautiful, my friend and I took the kids to Dawes Arboretum to walk/hike. We took a picnic, with limited empty calories of course, and plenty of water. We walked/hiked around for about 2 hours. But I started slowing down towards the end because my knee was feeling a little odd.

In 1997, I had ACL replacement surgery due to tearing it away from the bone during aerobics class...so see! Exercise isn't ALWAYS good for you! haha Anyway, from time to time, the knee swells and gives me some grief. Luckily, it isn't exactly painful...just quite a bit of pressure on the joint.

By tonight, it's pretty swollen. I'm not sure what I've done, other than my normal workouts. I worked out with the Playboy bunny last night, then with Mr. Candy this morning, but I've done that before. However, Mr. Candy DID have me stepping up onto a block almost as tall as my legs are long!! haha I think they were probably about 25" tall. That's a BIG step for short legs!! For a minute, I had to step up and down off the block, alternating legs. I found out my left leg is alot stronger than my right, which is odd because I'm right handed, plus my left knee is the one I had surgery on!

I'm sitting around with ice on it tonight. I'll be up in the morning and back at Boot Camp. I can't stop now.

Remember...pain is just weakness leaving the body!

~~~Just believe~~~

I can't get it right!

Okay, today was okay. I missed morning boot camp, but I did the evening one with the bunny.

After much self-examination and discussion, I've discovered my diet has been lacking....in healthy food!! Much of my calorie intake has been empty calories. I was keeping within my 1200 calorie/day, but some of the calories were things like Baked Lays or 100 calorie pack cookies. I thought I was being good by monitoring my calories....they weren't healthy though. My body couldn't use them, so it seems to be holding on to the fat. Even though I've not been hungry, my body can't use the junk I've been feeding it! Lightbulb!! That makes perfect sense!!

So I'm working at it again...gotta refine my eating now.

Still sweating gallons every day!

I gotta believe I can do this!

Another Monday to sweat!

Today was a pretty routine day, except for one part. I didn't get that "I'm dying!" feeling. I worked hard today, and I kept up with the other 2 ladies for the most part. I did my fair share of sweating and grunting, that's for sure!

I'm having a problem though. I'm not seeing results. I've been at this since June 9th. I've eaten healthy most of the time, with a few cheats here and there. I watch my calorie/nutrition count on Sparkpeople, I drink my water everyday....why am I not seeing the results? I DID have a week off during the July 4th festivities...but I did 2 personal training sessions that week. When I was visiting family down South, I missed camp, but I did work out 2 days and walk 1 day.

*sigh*...today isn't the best day.

But I gotta believe if I keep this up, it WILL happen.