Tomorrow concludes the second week of Boot Camp. While I don't HATE it anymore, it's definitely not something I love. That being said, today was the second morning the alarm went off and I consciously made the decision to roll over and go back to sleep. I only have to get up at 7:30, so it's not THAT early.
Why do I do this? I know I need to do this. I'm proud of myself on the days I go and watch what I eat...those are "good" days. I don't understand my own way of thinking. Remember on Monday, I wasn't able to go to Boot Camp because of the workshop, so I made an appointment for personal training ON MY OWN!! I went and had no problem. Why won't I get up and go regularly? It's not that I'm oversleeping...it's a conscious decision, "I just wanna go back to sleep." Boot Camp is not offered at any other time, so that's not an option.
Would someone get in my head and figure out why I set myself up for failure like this??
On days like today, I don't want to post anything here, because it makes me feel like I'm showing the "world" I've failed. I know "tomorrow is another day" and somedays I struggle....but knowing it and feeling it are two different things.
Today I've gotta believe that I'm not a failure just because I didn't have a good day.
I've gotta believe I can keep going and lose this weight.
I've gotta believe one day it will be second nature to exercise and eat right.
Today I'm just believing it...until it happens. *sigh*
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Just believing I must need a shrink!
Posted by educ8or2000 at 5:08 PM
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EVERYONE - I mean EVERYONE has days like this Holley! It is not a bad thing - we just lack the ENERGY and OOMPH that we need.
It even happens to the "Personal Trainers" ;) of the world!
It really does get better Holley - knowing that you are not a "morning person" I know that for you - maybe an afternoon workout will work best for you! I understand that BOOTCAMP is not offered then, but maybe next time there will be one offered then! :)
I BELIEVE IN YOU MY GOOD FRIEND!
So....I am saying this with as much love and respect....
GET UP! GET OUT TO THAT BOOTCAMP THAT YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR HARD EARNED MONEY ON GIRLFRIEND!!! GO! GO@ GO!
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