Boo-Tay Boot Camp

This has been an unbelievable week. Who would believe I would ever sign up, on my own free will, for BOOT CAMP!! Well...it happened. This blog is a result of my push to BELIEVE in myself!! I CAN do this.

Here's a review of the week:

Monday--I've shared my boring story before, so some of you know I have battled weight all my life. Not just an extra 20 pounds, but I'm considered morbidly obese. Over my 35 years, I've done so many diets I lost count! I even auditioned for The Biggest Loser when they were in town, but my partner and I weren't chosen. Then I tried doing it on my own, but it just wasn't working. I thought about losing weight alot, but thinking doesn't make it so!
Finally an opportunity came along that I could not pass up. If I let this go by, that would have meant I had given up on LIVING! I was sent a link to a website about a summer fitness program for kids. When I checked it out, there was a link for Adult Fitness Boot Camp. I clicked on it...just to 'see'. When I read the details, I knew it was MY opportunity. My 'class' meets for an hour every day, M-F. Today was the first day and it runs through the 2nd week of August.

There were only 4 of us there today, and of course I was the only FAT one. The other 3 were just women who wanted to 'get in shape and tone up'. They were really supportive though. I found it interesting that I could do some things much easier than they could! I wasn't sure what to expect when I got there. It was 8AM, and it was already a very humid 75 degrees. It was comfy, until we started moving!! I was able to do all the exercises...but I was sweating like a pig!! Here's the tricky part...I HATED every minute of it. It wasn't fun. It wasn't exciting. But I pushed through. At one point, I thought I was gonna puke, but I just took some deep breaths and pushed through. At the end of my first hour, I was still going, but I started seeing "spots" so the instructor told me I was finished for the day....darn!

I've got my healthy foods/snacks in the house. I've already had 60 oz. of water today.This WILL work. My LIFE depends on it.

Tuesday--
Day 2...I overslept!! And I'll admit I laid there looking at the clock thinking, "It's 8:00 right now....is it really worth getting out ot bed and rushing to get there? You won't get there until 8:30 anyway." Well, I'm happy to report I got my butt out of bed and threw on some clothes, brushed my teeth, grabbed a banana, and ran out the door. I got there at 8:30 and I jumped right in. I made it okay, but it WAS the shortened version.

And.....for the finale......The four of us ladies walked about a mile after class was over!! My thighs are killing me and I'm much more sore today than yesterday...to be expected though. I'm drinking my water. I didn't hate the workout as much today . I still didn't like it, but the 'hate' wasn't there. Guess I'll get up tomorrow and do it all again....except for the oversleeping part!!


Now you're caught up to today...
Day 3: Our instructor is so cute. He's a hottie, but a baby...about 24 years old I think. He's pretty supportive, but he's not as great as I'd like him to be. But then, he wouldn't be doing his job if he said,"Oh gosh...you look like you're having a hard time with that...you can skip this part." On the other hand, he doesn't get in my face and tell me to quit whining and suck it up either!

On that note...a friend in California is going through Boot Camp also. Her instructor sounds like JUST what I need. Today, her instructor told the class, "You made your butt that big, now you have to lift it!" Maybe that's what I need. Who knows?

So back to today...I made it through the class, but I've never sweated so much in my life!! We were doing a 'bridge' today, facing the mat, and I was sweating so much, it was dripping off my nose like a faucet....one drip after another!! I still don't like this Boot Camp stuff. But I keep telling myself, "Shut up...you don't like being fat either." And (at least for the last 3 days) I haven't wanted to eat anything unhealthy. I saw DH's stash of cookies this morning and thought, "OMG, you've lost your mind...after all the sweat and the held-back tears...no way are you screwing that up! Just think how much work you'd have to do again!"


So today, I'm believing in myself. I'm believing in people being supportive. I'm believing~~~