The Loner....

Well....last night was my first session with the Playboy bunny trainer. We did a lot of the same things we've done before....squats, curls, crunches....kinda in a circuit. In between each set, we did some sort of cardio. She made the squats a little more interesting though. She dropped a deck of cards on the floor and we had to squat to pick them up one by one. I was worried I wouldn't be able to work as hard because of my morning workout yesterday, but it was okay. I was proud of myself!! There were other women there who were really having a hard time, but I was keeping pace and even doing a little jogging in between weights! I kept thinking they HAD to be looking at me and wondering how the fat chick could keep up?! LOL That motivated me!! And...I kept my secret. I didn't tell them I've been working out since June 9th!!

This morning, I was a little sore when I got out of bed. I arrived at Boot Camp about 5 minutes early. When we started (on time), it was just me....and it was for the whole entire hour!! When I told my DS, he thought that would surely suck...to be the only one for the trainer to yell at...and it did at first. But the longer I worked out, the more I came to like it. I had my own personal training session and I had his undivided attention....not because he's Mr. Candy, but because of the motivation.

Yesterday I wasn't too thrilled with him. For some reason, it does me a lot of good to hear,"Good job!" or "You can do it...push yourself!" I don't know why the external motivation is helpful, but it is. Unfortunately, for the most part, he's not very motivational. He does make a few comments here and there during class, but it's general. Maybe I just don't take it personally when we are all there....or maybe I just need the personal attention. Who knows? Either way...he kicked my butt today!! Almost sick to my stomach.....almost!! I asked him about that feeling. He says it's good to feel that way! WTH?? He says it's proof that you've worked your body to it's limit and for quick results, that's the way to do it. I asked Cyn about it too...and she said the same, so I guess they know what they are talking about!

Tonight I'm pretty sore though. I guess that's a good thing too. Bev told me about a shirt she has..."Pain is a sign of weakness leaving the body." I thought that was a good saying for the day...so I adopted it. Think I might even make a shirt to say that. (She offered hers to me, but my girls won't fit in an XL yet!!) I'm thinking I'll be more sore in the morning after sleeping tonight.

Today I just believe...
...I can do this.
...I didn't get this way overnight so it won't be fixed overnight.
...I'm getting healthier everyday (because surely if this could kill me, I'd be dead already!)

I gotta keep on, keep on, keep on.....believing. :)